February is the month of love. For some reason, people celebrate love or heart’s day every 14th of the 2nd month of a year. Not March, April, May or my month, November. It is when people seems to be more loving, inspired or maybe bitter??. A friend asked me, “So how are you feeling every valentine’s day? While everyone is having his/her own date, you were there at the corner, alone”. I asked myself the same question and I asnswered it as honestly as I could. I said, “Im just fine”.
Love perhaps is one of the most memorable things people can have. You might forget everything about a someone special but not a feeling you have for him/her. I am considered a baby, most innocent, most wholesome person in every group I join. Im not really sure if it’s because I look younger than my age,(as they say) Im petite for my age, or I am innocent as a child. Most of the people I talk to, will choose all of the above, but said its most because of the latter. I have had no boyfriend since birth. While people of my age are having their own families (im 25 now),exploring stuff with their partners, here I am, daily routine is work, church, and home. I go out and is having fun with friends but will happen once in a blue moon. I go to the bar sometimes, nightouts, swimming, got drunk (Not to the extent that I no longer know what im doing). See i have life too but as they say, “never been touched, never been kissed”.
friends will always tell me to experience having a love life. To discover what falling in love means. I guess people misunderstood what love is, or I just have a different and weird perspective of love.
As for me, i have had no boyfriend since birth, yes, but it doesnt mean that i never fell inlove.
I was inlove to a very simple man before, for the reasons I dont know. Why did I know that I was in love? I picture him everyday of my life. I see him everyday and I feel him everyday BY HEART. Im missing him everyday, and he’s the only man who made me laugh so hard as well as make me cry for a couple of years. Yes, for a couple of years. I was, and I am inlove with him for 9 years now. yes, until now.
I can say that the feeling is mutual. He might not loved me the way I love him but as a girl, I felt how she treated me the way my suitors and admirers treated me. As a human being, i felt the love he gave me in his own simple ways. I think that was when I realized that nothing is wonderful than being in love and feeling the love from someone that you immensely love.
I ended up broken-hearted and he has now a family of his own. Im not really sharing everything about our story as i dont know where to start and how to do it, but im still loving him silently. I know that within my heart, I will never forget him. All i want is the best for him. Seeing him happy is what i want for him. Even if that means, a pain on my end.
I dont know how to define Love in its deeper sense but I know that when you love someone, you want nothing but happiness and all the best for that person. Its selfless. It should be pure. It will not ask for any explanation as your Love is enough to answer whatever might be the possible questions. As long as you are not abusing anyone’s rights, your love should be the answer why you want his happiness and why you are willing to sacrifice.
I hope everyone will be inspired this Valentine’s Day and will cherish every moment while they are in love, as its the most wonderful NOUN they will share for their grandchildren’s grandchildren. A noun best define by hearts. A wonderful VERB they can show to their loved ones. A verb that anyone should not be afraid to show. A wonderful Love, one worth having for.